No money, No marriage

While everyone else is under the impression that Wickham is going to marry Lydia, I know he won't. He would never marry someone if they didn't have money, which Lydia does not. Mr.Gardiner is going to help my father find Lydia in London and hopefully bring her back home before anything else bad happens.  I love you Lydia, but you need to start making better decisions!

I just want to go home.

Today I heard from Jane, which normally brightens my day, but not this time. I was informed that Lydia has run off with Wickham. Shortly after I heard the news, Darcy arrived and I regret telling him about this problem. Will I ever see him again? I told the Gardiner's, and now we are just working on getting me home to my family.

Nice to meet you.

I met Darcy's sister yesterday and I enjoyed her presence. I also saw Mr.Bingley which was quite weird, but as he said, we have alot to talk about reagrding my sister. We were invited to dinner at the Darcy's tonight, and this morning we went and thanked Darcy's sister for her hospitality. Miss Bingley did not please me, but Miss Darcy did more than that. I actually really like her.

You got me thinking.

While approaching Pimberley, a rush of nerves and excitement came over me. We got a tour around the house by Darcy's housekeeper who in fact spoke very highly of him. This just reassured my thoughts that maybe Darcy is a good guy. While approaching the garden, Darcy actually showed up and we caught eachothers eyes. From that moment I couldn't stop thinking about him for the rest of the day, and i was very pleased with how well he took meeting my uncle and aunt. He even asked me to meet his sister, how sweet.

Thoughts.

I realized today that my parents marriage is not something I look up to. I find myself blaming my father even though I know I shouldnt. I hardly hear from Lydia and I want her to know I miss her dearly. The Gardiner's sent a letter today inviting me to Derbyshire and I'm here. When I arrived, the Gardiner's wanted  to go to Pemberley, Darcy's estate. At first I was skeptical about going but after being informed I will not see him for he is not down for the summer, I agreed to go.

I feel for you.

I broke the news to Jane today and she took it better than I thought. She still regards Mr.Bingley with affection and this breaks my heart. My mother is very upset over one day losing her home to Charlotte Collins. On top of everything, the wife of the regiment's colonel invited Lydia to go to Brighton with the military regiment. I tried to convince father that it wasn't smart but my words did not change his mind. I had a talk with Wickham today and informed him that I now enjoy the presence of Darcy and Fitzwilliam. (He didn't like that very much.) Drama drama drama...

Running off to the men.

Lydia informed me today that Wickham is safe due to the girl he was courting has moved in with her uncle in Liverpool. I was told a handful of stories on the way home today and I couldn't help but notice how much my little sisters brought up Wickham. They want to go back to Meryton but I don't feel as if that is the best thing for our family's reputation right now. I also don't know how I feel about seeing Wickham. The future will tell.

Reunited.

My thoughts concerning Bingley are restored and now I just hurt for Jane. I have reunited with her and I am not quite sure how to share the news. I wish nothing but happiness for Jane and I'm embarrassed by my family's foolish bahavior. We are about to meet with our sisters Kitty and Lydia for a bite to eat. Goodbye everyone!

Regrets.

While on my walk today, Darcy handed me a letter informing me of the situations regarding both jane and Mr.Bingley and his attitude towards Wickham. I read the letter over and over, and on my long walk I started going over all the times I have encountered Wickham and what was said. I realized that Wickham has been at fault this whole time, and it makes me sick the way I treated Darcy without knowing the truth. I am truely sorry Darcy.

I would never.

Darcy proposed to me today, and I patiently waited until he was done talking to refuse him. I would never marry someone that is responsible for my sister's heartbreak. He told me that he was doing Mr.Bingley a favor. I also stated that his attitude towards wickham was unacceptable. He defended himself but claimed that he loved me and didn't know why. I left him with the last comment that he is the last person in the world I'd marry.

I can't believe him.

I saw Darcy at my favorite spot on my walk today. He is making me wonder if Fitzwilliam is interested in me. Fitzwilliam and I had alone time today and I found out some jaw-dropping news. He revealed that Darcy was the one that broke apart Mr.Bingley and my sister, Jane. I grew so upset that I couldn't attend tea at Rosings with the Collins.

Very Interesting.

Charlotte has tried to convice me that Darcy loves me, but I laugh at the idea. Fitzwilliam reminds me alot of Wickham and it's quiet interesting. Darcy and Fitzwilliam still visit alot but Darcy seems yet to change. I often see him out on my walks, which is weird to me but i don't understand why I always see him. I guess I'll find out soon enough! Goodnight everyone.

Oh, how lovely.

It is always a pleasure seeing Mr.Darcy. HA! But, it was an actual pleasure meeting his cousin, Colonel Fitzwilliam. He is quiet entertaining and I loved playing the piano for him, as I promised. Darcy walked to the piano so he could be closer to me but I did not have much interest. His remarks did not fool nor intimidate me.