Thoughts.

I realized today that my parents marriage is not something I look up to. I find myself blaming my father even though I know I shouldnt. I hardly hear from Lydia and I want her to know I miss her dearly. The Gardiner's sent a letter today inviting me to Derbyshire and I'm here. When I arrived, the Gardiner's wanted  to go to Pemberley, Darcy's estate. At first I was skeptical about going but after being informed I will not see him for he is not down for the summer, I agreed to go.